I Just Wanted To Be Loved: Anti oneshot

narutofoxlover:

Anti leaned against the wall of the recording room, heaving a frustrated sigh as his body glitched. What were those idiots doing? He thought they wanted him but now they were all turning against him. What did he have to do to get them to care for him like they did for Jack?! It was so unfair! He worked so hard to please them but they always went running straight back to Sean. No more. If they wanted him so badly, they would have to fight for him. He was tired of catering to their wishes.

              He was broken from his thoughts when Skype on Jack’s computer began to ring. BumBum is calling, accept or decline? This was the last thing he needed right now. His form glitched again, and when it settled he looked exactly like Jack. Couldn’t let Mark know that Jack wasn’t in control after all. He put on a false smile before accepting the call. To his surprise, it wasn’t Mark “D-dark?” Why was he calling?

               "You can drop the facade Anti. I know it’s you,“ Dark said, his cold expression unreadable. Anti flickered back to his normal appearance. “What do you want Dark? I’m kinda busy at the moment,” Anti said, annoyed. “I saw the video. What kind of stunt are you pulling here? People are gonna figure out you’re real. And if they know you’re real, they’ll figure out I am too. Your little tantrum is gonna get us in big trouble. Why must you be such a child, throwing a fit whenever people don’t give you the attention you want,” Dark said angrily, scolding Anti as if he were a bratty little kid.

               "You don’t understa-“ Anti began before getting cut off. “What don’t I understand Anti?! Do you have any idea wat could happen to us if we’re found out?! In case you’ve forgotten, normal people don’t have things like us! We could get sent to some sort of secret government facility and be experimented on just because you’re being a spoiled brat!” Dark shouted, beyond pissed. 

               "You really don’t get it do you? I’ll die without their attention Dark! I’m not doing this because i like the attention, I’m doing this because I need it! Not all of us get be a nightmare creature that doesn’t have to rely on anyone you know! I’m just a tulpa! And tulpas disappear if they are forgotten or not given enough attention! I’ve always been a ‘glitch bitch’ but the glitches have been a lot worse lately! And I know for a fact that that isn’t a good sign! I did this because I don’t want to die. I’m scared Dark,“ Anti said, his body glitching sporadically and his voice trailing off towards the end.

                 This was all just a last ditch effort to stay alive. He didn’t want to go, there was so much he hadn’t gotten to experience yet. He was their creation, why were they letting him die? Why didn’t they love him? That was all he ever wanted. He was just following the guidelines they set down when they created him. After all, how many fanfictions and art feature him being a bad guy? A psychopath? A murderer? A threat to Jack?

                 "A-anti….I’m so sorry. I had no idea,” Dark said, guilt evident in his voice and expression. “I don’t need your pity. It’s not like there’s anything you can do anyway. And to be honest, I don’t think I’m gonna make it anyway. I’m pretty sure that video has only made things worse for me. My glitching is coming more frequently and, for once in my life, I feel tired. So, so tired. I’m not sure how much longer I’m gonna last. Please, just don’t forget about me okay? Even if everyone else does. Promise me, please,” Anti replied, sounding absolutely exhausted, his voice pleading. “I promise Anti. I won’t forget you. I promise,” Dark said. A soft smile graced Anti’s face. “Thank you." 

              Anti made to sit down in the computer chair but his legs gave out from beneath him. "Anti!” Dark shouted worriedly. Anti lay on the floor, his whole body trembling, tears pricking his eyes. It was happening so fast now. He didn’t have long at all. Shit. He didn’t want to go! Why?! Why did it have to be like this? He just wanted to be loved.

              His vision started to darken around the edges and he struggled to stay awake, knowing that if he lost consciousness, Jack would take over again and he would be gone. For good this time. “Anti hold on! I’ll shadow travel to you. Please, just hold on till i can get there!” He heard Dark call from the computer. “I’m sorry Dark, I don’t think I can,” Anti said, his voice shaky. The next few words from Dark were garbled, his eyes drifting shut as the last of his strength faded away. “Anti? Anti?! Anti please, say something! Don’t give up! Please! You’re my best friend! Don’t leave me!”

(( Had the idea of Anti needing our attention to survive a while back. I was thinking about the little tantrum canon Anti had yesterday and the idea came back. I immediately wrote this down. To be honest, i teared up a bit while writing this ))